i like the way you shine.

his week hasn't been too bad.
its been a little bit slow.
but, hey, its thursday.
tomorrow is friday.
and i have a fun weekend planned out, so it should be pretty fun.
its @green-eyes-xox birthday tomorrow, so everyone wish her a good day sometime soon.
fun birthday plans with her i hope.
umm...school is school.
i understood the chemistry lesson today, so thats good.
i have a lot of makeup work to do though, so that will be kind of difficult.
my grades aren't the best.
but i've got a couple more weeks.
arizona and memorial day weekend are coming fast...so i've got some things to look forward to.
overall, life isn't that bad.
i just want a boy.

it has been an unbelievably long time since i've made a set
so my apologies if this one is absolutely dreadful.
well, since the beginning of the school year, quite a lot has changed.
the weather, for one, has increased by twenty or thirty degrees.
we are in the nineties now.
a bit too hot for my taste, but at least its not snow.
i adore the sun, so its okay.
my boy situation hasn't changed, considering the fact that i haven't kissed anyone since the summer.
yeah, its kind of a bummer.
but hey, i've got two more years of high school.
the only thing that worries me is the fact that i cant even picture myself in a relationship.
so who knows, maybe i'll die alone.
im not anti boy though,
ive had plenty of crushes...
i've just always been second choice, so my options haven't been quite as open as i would like them to be.
but life goes on.
i need new music though, so if anyone would like to share, i would be eternally thankful.
i will share some of the music i've been listening to, just in case anyone else is in need.
. . .
summertime sadness || lana del rey
video games || lana del rey
radio || lana del rey
bel air || lana del rey
honeymoon || bombadil
middle distance runner || sea wolf
i am mine remix || brooke waggoner
the gambler || fun.
walking the dog || fun.
5 years time || noah and the whale
l.i.f.e.g.o.e.s.o.n. || noah and the whale
neopolitan dreams || lisa mitchell
blood || middle east
teen idle || marina and the diamonds
girls || marina and the diamonds
i am not a robot || marina and the diamonds
elephant gun || beirut
go do || jonsi
skinny genes || eliza doolittle
submarine || the lumineers
classy girls || the lumineers
pictures || sia
blue eyes || mika
. . .
as of now, thats all.
i'll keep updating it as i think of more music and whatnot.
but right now, i've got to go do the butt loads of chemistry and algebra two homework i have waiting.
someone shoot me.
21 more days until school is out.
idk if i can make it.

i love the fall.
it is my favorite time of the year
i also enjoy daylight savings time.
extra hour of sleep = better mood.
not that im always really happy, cause im definatly not at all.
but still.
um..life is good i think,
most of the time i can tolerate things.
but i dont understand some stuff.
whatever.
i'll get over it.
i want this semester to be over.
i hate school.
i want a boyfriend.
im almost 16.
i dont want to grow up.
i love taylor swift.
i dislike chemistry and algebra 2.
people piss me off
and boys are confusing.
thats
it.

or something along those lines.
not that im in a death threatening situation with my mind.
im just feeling a little bit lonely lately.
but thats all.
i didnt get tan in arizona.
i love coldplay
i dont have any friends.
thats all i think.

weird night.
bad day.
no expectations.
lazy.

so this year hasnt been the greatest.
i thought it would be funner than it has been.
dont get me wrong, its 100 times better than being a freshman
but it just hasnt met my expectations quite yet.
so right now life is pretty boring.
or dull, so to say.
nothing new has been happening
no new people
no new music { except taylor swift who is saving my life from becoming completely dead }
and everything has just gotten...old.
but i can see better things coming soon i think.
i hope.

ive been in the weirdest mood lately.
im still not sure what i feel anymore.
but im getting used to not understanding myself i guess.
cause its not bugging me quite as much.
i found a couple new songs that i really like, but im worried i'll get sick of them too fast cause that's all i have been listening to the past twenty four hours.
i'm also in an 'untouchable // taylor swift' mood.
i want a cuddle buddy.
the weather is perfect for one.
i love this weather.
almost rainy - - you can smell it.
and its chilly.
and i just want to watch a movie.
or see a good view of the city.
that all i guess..
school is getting better.
thats it.

i dont even have the words to describe what im feeling right now.
its very mixed emotions i think, i just cant tell what emotions yet.
tonight was an okay night, i missed a lot of my friends though.
thats why away games suck.
that, and not playing the same sport as 85% of your friend group.
i just feel very distant lately, like i dont belong anywhere.
i try to talk and fit in, but i just cant.
nothing is working.
school has made my life go downhill.
i just dont know what to do about it.
ahh, i am still in great need of some tunes also.
my playlists and music are terrible right now.
so old.
and they make me sad
and bring back old memories i wish i could relive.
whatever, i just gotta learn to let it go.
wow, i have a lot on my mind
and thats just a little bit of it.
im tired.
i think.
goodnight.

i am in the weirdest mood lately.
i want to be social and friends with everyone
but then again, im just not in the mood for people.
not that anyone is getting on my nerves a lot
i'm just not in a social mood.
at least, i dont think i am.
i don't know.
my mind is playing tricks with me.
i am very sick of all of the music on my ipod at the moment.
which sucks cause all i want is music
but then all of my music is just making my mood even worse.
so youtube it is, considering i'm broke in the itunes department.
so, what i'm getting at, is if anyone wants to make me a CD
or has any suggestions for new music
let me know.
i need the suggestions, they would be greatly appreciated.
i dont want to go to school tomorrow.
i don't want to do my homework.
i just want summer again.
just another few months..
hahahaha thats a joke.
its like a year away.
shoot
me.

i am really enjoying the on coming autumn weather.
it is so gorgeous outside,
and the weather is cooling down - - its rather refreshing.
friends are okay. im in good places with all of them.
boys are long gone.
ive kinda decided to just let them drift away.
i'll just stay friends with them.
they are good people to talk to.
and fun to listen to..just saying.
school is hard.
i want summer.
but i guess i could say im content with life.